i'm always happy when October rolls around. it's my favorite month of the year.
i haven't done much of those important tasks i planned for myself, i'm afraid. these days it seems like i never really have my head on straight, and that makes it pretty hard to focus on stuff what needs doing. what i need to do is put together a good to-do list. my grandma gave me some pretty sound advice a while ago: everyday, i should set aside a couple hours to just get shit done. like a schedule. it's very good advice that i haven't taken yet.
a couple weeks ago i decided to rewatch hlvrai the whole way through. it was fun! i decided that if i was thinking about it, it would be good to work on the ramble page for it. surely talking about a thing that i like can't be that hard.
but the issue was that it was hard. i couldn't wrestle my ideas out of my head in a way that i liked. i was at it for long enough that when i walked away from the computer, i had a headache from staring at the screen for so long. i worried about my writing skills a lot that night. aside from this blog and my journal, i haven't been writing consistantly for a long time. i was so upset about it that i thought i couldn't truly call myself a writer anymore, if my skills had become rustier than an old cleaver.
that was the stress talking, of course. the next morning i felt a bit better, and i remembered my old fascination with poetry. specifically, i remembered the Poetry Foundation website. i used to explore there when i was bored in class. until that day, i don't think i'd visited that website in well over a year.
part of the reason i started thinking about poetry again is that i was rewatching Nosferatu Nite. it's October, it's the season for spooky ghouls and whatnot. but a fun quirk about this production (and most others by Radio TV Solutions) is that there's a poem at the beginning. two, for this one in particular. and they're pretty cool! i took the effort to transcribe them into a document so i can have them on my computer.
all this is to say that i think poetry is neat! i have for a long time. and i figure, if i'm having trouble writing, maybe i ought to change my strategy. maybe i ought to try writing poems for a while.
i have since gotten sidetracked by other stuff, like playing Anthology of the Killer and lying down a lot, but again. it might be good for me to try. something else that's becoming a higher priority every day is working on my year in review for 2025. i need to start writing that rough draft soon so i'm not scrambling to get it done come early 2026.
one last thing here is that i've decided to draw some friends for Wyvern. so y'all might see more of them sometime soon.
